Trying to move on

I’ll continue where I left off last time, writing about that friend of mine that will be operated somewhere in the next couple of months. She still doesn’t know the exact date for the operation, but she went back for some more tests. And they told her that they don’t think its a aggressive tumor. And that they will be able to tell here the type of tumor, the moment she wakes up after the operation.

Hopefully they are right about it not being a dangerous tumor, I really can’t use any more things in my head right now.

Something else that keeps me busy, is that my mother has sold the house here. She moved out 2 months ago, and I stayed here together with my brother. We here supposed to take care of the house together. But the reality is that I’m doing 90% of the work, and he just sits behind his computer. I told him more then once that he should start doing some work around the house, but he’s just to lazy to do anything useful around here.

Luckily, he will be moving out next month, so I will have the whole house for myself until the end of December, when the new owners move in. I still haven’t really decided where I’m going to live.

I was first planning on going to Spain, and work there for a couple of years. And then move on to Australia or New Zealand. But when my mother suddenly decided to sell the house, that changed everything.

I have been learning lots of new things in the last 2 years about webdesign, and started working on my own projects. The idea was to make money with these websites that I’m working one, which is possible. The only thing you need is time to work on them. So after almost 2 years of learning and experimenting, i was getting really close to putting them online.

Then because of my mother’s decision to move, I was forced to find a full-time job, and did not have the time to work on my own things anymore. I only would have needed a couple more months to work on them, and they would have been finished.

Right now, I don’t see how I’m ever going to finish them within a reasonable amount of time. I already work the whole day behind a computer, and when I get home I’m tired and really don’t want to work behind my computer anymore. That would be really unhealthy in the long run to sit behind a desk for 12hr a day.

I asked my mother to wait a couple of months before selling the house, but she didn’t really take that serious, and just sold it. I really don’t appreciate here doing that, and the relation between here and me has really gone downhill since she did that.

I can see why she wants to leave this house, since my father died here. But the some goes for me and my brother. I have been working on moving to another country, since my father died. And now that I’m so close to reaching that goal, she just makes almost impossible for me to achieve that before the end of the year.

Looking forward to the weekend!

I have been working at my new job for almost 6 weeks now, and so far I really enjoy it. The only that kind of bothers me is that, there is absolutely no designing involved in my current job. Of course they told me before I started there, that I would be mainly doing the coding for the websites, instead of the designing.

This used the be more balanced out at me previous job, I didn’t really think it would be a problem for me. But now after 6 weeks of coding, I could really use some variation in my work. Who knows, maybe it will be completely different in a couple of weeks, I have only been there for 6 weeks now and maybe it’s a bit to early to start complaining about these kind of things.

The reason I picked the title “Looking forward to the weekend” is because I’m so tired from getting out of bed every day at 6 in the morning, and there’s also just to much stuff in my head. These 2 things aren’t really helping getting a good sleep.

One of the things that kept going around in my head, was that a good friend of mine told me they found a tumor in her body. They aren’t sure whether it’s a dangerous one or not, but I just can’t help thinking of what might happen if it turns out to be a dangerous one.

I know you should always try to think positive about these kind of things, in reality its not always that easy, especially if you know several people who died in the last 2 years from a similar thing. I’m really afraid my aunt is going to be the next one who won’t survive another 2-3 months. Considering all that, I don’t think its that weird that I have a really hard time trying be confident in a happy ending for her. And that has been slowly driving me insane this week.

The moment I read her e-mail and found out she had a tumor, I got goose bumps al over my body. It just couldn’t believe what I was reading. She also wrote that she was placed on a waiting list, so she has to wait 3 months before they can remove that tumor. I find that a bit insane, imagine if it turns out to a dangerous tumor. You want that out of your body as quickly as possible, and not wait 3 months and possible create more damage.

Well, i think this is enough for now, I have a lot more to write but I’ll save that for the next time. Luckily, only one more working day left, and then finally weekend!